So, I thought I'd try to share a bit more of "reality."
The last couple months, Maggie, who has been potty trained for over a year, has started having accidents ALL THE TIME. EVERYWHERE. It has been so hard for me to understand and try to work through. Obviously, I have no previous experience in this department and I've felt unbelievably helpless. And frustrated. And angry. Today, we finally went to the doctor to see if it might be medical, and indeed, Maggie may have a "spastic bladder." There is medicine to help treat it, so prayers to heaven this will end soon.
My other challenge right now is keeping up with the kids. With Audrey in the mix, our house goes from looking spotless to "barn animals live here" in moments. Seriously, moments. I know having a clean house isn't the most important thing, but messes throw me into a serious funk. It makes me so cranky and edgy, which leads to a whole new plethora of problems. Three kids 4 & under is hard. Especially when they're all gifted in the art of destruction.
|View from the purple park.|
I suppose all of this is topped off by depression. This winter has been rough for me mentally, and as much as I would love to pull out of it, it just doesn't seem to be happening. I have felt better these past few days as the sun has been out more. I really hope it lasts. The toll on my family, Eric especially, is difficult.
Don't get me wrong, all of the happy things I have blogged have happened too, they're just not the only things happening. I do want to be a person who focuses on the positive, so I'll leave you with this:
We bought these fruit crates a while back, and they've been sitting on our kitchen counter empty. After our last trip to Costco, I was busy unloading the car and putting things away. When the dust finally settled I found the crates full to the brim. Mags had carefully arranged the fruit we'd just bought in them. It made my heart SMILE.